The Thought of Being a FLY

Every now and then, people will ask you silly question like, “if you won a million bucks what would you do with it?”or the kind.

The other day, I’ve got one question!

The question went like this : “What sort of living creature would you be in your next life?”.
Then I jokingly answered, I would be a FLY.
Next thing I know, she was burst with laughter, she was nearly in tears.
It was initially a joke just to get a few laughs, but after a few days, the joke became a thought to me.
Well, what is so funny of being a fly?
A fly, well fly, meaning you’ll get freedom. Eating/drinking cooked food from human being, meaning you don’t necessary have to work for delicious food(I’m extremely lazy, ok!). Life span of a fly is normally average of 2 days, meaning that you don’t have to live long enough to suffer. Alright, I don’t want to be bias here only talking about the pros of a fly. Cons of being a fly are, ugly looking thing, running the risk of being smacked by humans, and also if human food aren’t available, flies will turn to what came out of animals (aka SHIT, let it be chicken shit, bull shit, human shit, or whatever shit).
Now, let us analyse each one of the cons listed above.

Ugly looking thing
How often do you see ugly people walking on the street? I reckon the answer would be quite often. I am not saying I am good looking, but the fact is people might regarded me as ugly looking depending on what sort of people are judging, agree? Even Ugly people, do you really think they didn’t know if they’re ugly? They know for sure, but did they do anything trying to beautify their looks? No not really, people just get used to it, and move on with life. So, it is fair to say that if we were born ugly, well, we might complaint about it for a while, but in the end, we’ll just accept who we are and get on with life. So being ugly isn’t a major problem at least for me.

Smacked by humans
What are the possibilities of being smacked by humans, honestly! How often when you tried to smack a fly but end up unsuccessfully! Think about it, the possibility is small, and it’s unlikely. If it happens it happens! Bad luck. It is also part of my fault if I being a fly and been smacked by human. I’ve got every tools I need to move very very fast.

Turn to SHIT for food
I do agree, there are always flies around shit! But me as a fly, I will hang around at the residential and consume human food instead. It’s all about choice!

People always think of being a bird, an eagle, tiger, elephant or etc. Yeah I do agree anyone who wants freedom being able to fly where they want (being an eagle or bird) , getting security of being big (being elephant), or being popularly recognised(tiger lion).
But before being any animals stated above, think of the following question first,
Can you get up really early in the morning?(birds/eagles wake up early for food)
Are you willing to give up meat? (elephant is vegetarian)
Are you willing to work so hard every time for food? (tiger chasing down a deer)

well, if one of your answer for above is NO! then why not consider being a fly??Being a fly isn’t that bad at all!

Idiot Phone Call

Got a phone call this morning in the office
Me: Hello!
Xx: Hi this is Xx, calling regarding the job the other day, ABC building?
Me: Yes! What is wrong with it
Xx: See, I’ve got a meeting with the client today at 11 O’clock, however I still have not seen the report yet
Me: I have done my part, and sent it to John, perhaps you should give John a call for the progress
Xx: but you know I’ve got meeting at 11 O’clock with the client…blah blah blah..
Me: Yeah…yeah..yeah…(what the fuck do you expect from me?)
Me: ……….(ran out of idea what to respond)
Xx: …………(she is waiting for my respond)
Me: Yeah, call John
Xx: Ok I’ll just try that.
Hang up!
He already knew I am not involved in producing the report, my part was to provide information. He knew that in the beginning, then why the hell he called? what sort of respond does he expect from me? I seriously don’t understand people!!! Doesn’t he feel that he had just wasted a few minutes of precious time for NOTHING? SUCH AN IDIOT!

Chinese New Year in Australia

Being in Australia, Chinese New Year means NOTHING at all. My colleagues didn’t know it was CNY, no fancy decorations on the streets/mall, people were not rushing out to buy stuffs, everything seems pretty normal than usual. So depressing to see this. This is my 1st year in Australia celebrating CNY, thought it would be an experience, but it is really an unforgettable, unbearable experience. The reason of not going back to Malaysia was because

1. I have a younger brother here, I was told to look after him. (he’s already 19 years old – what’s the point of me being here “look after”).
2. I only have 3 weeks of annual leave, I figured it was a bit short for me to go home, I was thinking if I accumulate more annual leaves by working 2 years straight, I can next time take a longer holiday to Malaysia. (now I do realised it was a bad choice!)
   

Well, anyway, it is the 5th day of CNY today, the pain of missing home, the pain of depressing are slowly dissolving into thin air. I still remember, I nearly broke down and cried while I was in supermarket the 1st day of CNY. This is what happened. I was in China town, went into a Supermarket while waiting for my mate to do his groceries. They were playing those mandarin CNY’s song, and I thought to myself, if I were to be in Malaysia right at this moment, I would hear this songs over and over again, I would be buying fire crackers and getting ready for CNY. While over here, don’t really hear anyone getting excited about CNY. Let me see what I have done for the last couple of days

CNY eve
Sit at home, played game in the morn, afternoon.
Went to church at night for dinner,
Went to temple (a bit of a conflict huh?) afterwards for some lion dances and fire works. Was amazed to see so many Asian at once.

CNY 1st day
Sit at home, played game in the morn, afternoon.
Went to mate’s house for some food at night. He was saying : “come to my house for some food”. Now if you were in Malaysia, you would expect wonderful food and drinks. But what we had over here were…..
Wait for it….
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Fried rice noodle, vermicelli, ho kien noodle and 2 mid sized fish to be shared among 11 people.
Although there is a HUGE gap between Malaysia Australia CNY food, but I was grateful enough to have at least some celebration among friends. After dinner, we went to a church auntie’s (I don’t even know who she is) house for gathering. Think there will be ang pao (red packet)???
Absolutely nothing.
Went home, more gaming.

CNY 2nd day
Suppose to be at work today, but took the day off, too depresses to work on CNY 2nd day. Went to china town, had lunch with friends while waiting for lion dance. Were fortune enough to see a couple lion dances, and to my amazed, they even set off fire crackers. Now, I thought to myself, there must be a way to get fire crackers around here. Asked a shop who deals with illegal activities, and was told it is not legal to have them (that’s why I asked this particular shop, idiot!!). Didn’t further ask how to get fire crackers because as if I will go and buy one here. It must be really expensive and running the risk of getting caught by police.
A bit of pokies, and went home.

3rd day of CNY
Back to my depressing work place. Sigh~~!

Depressing? yeah i guess so!

anyway, Happy new year guys! I have decided to go home every CNY! Another 365 days to go! Counting down.

Weather Forecast

I was checking the weather forecast just now in the office. To my surprise I saw this

Woo hoo…it’s going to be sunshine 5 days straight, that’s a sight I don’t see often. What am I going to be for these 5 beautiful days?
Thursday, Friday and Monday are out of question, because I have to work, I’ll be staying in the office these days (sigh~), so that leaves 2 days.
To come to think about it, what is the point of getting exited over 5 days of sunny days? It’s not like I am able to enjoy it anyway. So hate it when I look out the window and see blue sky, beautiful day with bird chirping/flying away while I have to stay in the office hoping I can outside.
Let’s be optimistic, at least I’ll have a sunshine weekend this week. What am I going to do?
Saturday: Sitting in an outdoor coffee shop sipping latte while smoking my life away?
Sunday: Go down to the bay and check out some chick?
These sounds like a good plan to me! See what happen then.

~~I'm walking on sunshine, woooah

~~I'm walking on sunshine, woooahand

~~don't it feel good!!~~

By Katrina and the waves

A Conversation in the OFFICE

Xx: eh…so what’s happening tonight?
Me: Nothing much just want to veg out on the couch and do nothing
Xx: Nothing eh…
Looks at me expecting answer
Me: Absolutely Nothing
Xx: That’s good then.
Still looks at me expecting a reply
My mind going a thousand miles searching for a reply,
Two second later,
Me: Yeah! Not doing much because I’m quite tired from work, just need a rest.
Xx: Good!
Still looks at me expecting me to say something
Me: Yeah!!
I smiled, and slowly turn my sight on my computer because I cannot think of anything to talk to anymore. A few seconds later, I secretly check if he’s still looking at me expecting an answer. To my horror, he is, then he smiled at me, and slowly turned his head and sight onto his computer.

Oh my god! What is wrong with him? I mean don’t you just hate it when you really have nothing to say but you still have to say something? To be honest I just want to do my own job and stay awake in the office. If I have nothing to say, just accept it, don’t try to dig out all my secrets or my daily activities. Even if I do talk about my life or my daily activities, I don’t think he will be interested as well.
The culture between two different race (say Chinese and Ang Mo) are just different.
Chinese eat rice and stir fry, celebrate Chinese New Year and have great respect for elder.
Ang Mo eat potatoes and steak, celebrate X’mas, drink beer all the time and talk bull shit.

I am not racist, or anything, but I do respect their way of living. I am just saying that my culture compare to him are different and its just hard to talk something that he (or ang mo) may find interested in, agree?

MY LIFE

I was born in Australia, and my family were initially planning to settle down. When I was two to three years old, my parents decided to migrate back to Malaysia, Sibu, because of family business. I spent most of my childhood in sibu, and when I was sixteen years old, I came back to Australia for education. I have finished high school here, got my university degree here, and now working in a government department here in Australia as well.
Although I am an Australian citizen, every now and then, I get asked where I am from, I always say I am from Malaysia. why? because ..

1. From my appearance, I don’t look even close like an Australian born Chinese
2. I don’t speak fluent English like ang mo does, I speak Malaysian English (e.g. wah lao…why your face so big one lar?)
3. I spent all of my childhood in Malaysia, I grew up eating Malaysian food and Chinese food, I am influenced by Malaysian Chinese way of living, and I love living in Malaysia.
4. Malaysia Chinese is my background, and I’m proud of it, I don’t want to brag about or even pretend to be an ang mo just because I am holding Australian passport.

I lead a simple lifestyle, everyday, I wake up, go to work, finish work, go home, eat and sleep. I am not a boring person, but because of work, I can’t really enjoy my life. To be quite frank, I have been working for nearly a year now and I still haven’t settle for this life style yet. I imagine my life as being a free man, able to eat when I like, do whatever stuff that I like, drink coffee and smoke whenever I like. I hate doing the same thing over and over again. I hate it when I really want to do something but I can’t because I need to work. For example, go travelling.

For life, I do not need a purpose, I just want to enjoy life and have loads of money. People say money is the root of all evil, well, I say money is the root of all happiness. That also explain why although I love Malaysian lifestyle but I choose to stay here and work – MONEY. Back in Malaysia as a graduate like myself, I will probably get paid about one thousand plus a few hundred Malaysian riggit. Don’t you just hate it when you want a holiday, you have to plan and not take days off for a long time just to build up a few weeks holiday? Don’t you just hate it when everyday you wake up and think how wonderful it is to continue sleeping till your body actually tells you to wake up? Well. That’s what I am after in life.
But reality is,
as a student, you should study hard for the sake of your future and your parent’s expectation,
when you graduate,
you should work hard save hard for the sake of your future family, and a house and a car,
when you retire,
it is the time to enjoy life, but realise your body can’t really keep up to what you really want it to do (can't walk as far as used to, get tired easily, body ache and stuff)

and when time comes, you die without actually doing the stuff that you really want.
Isn’t reality harsh?
I say let us loosen up, let us evolve,
I say never be complete,
I say stop being perfect
Just let the chips fall where they may!!

Let us go CRAZY.

hahaha!

I wish, I wish I can as brave as the statement above.

well, back to reality…back to my life, back to my work, sigh~ !